Time heals all they say.......

Spent a week in the hospital because I needed some help. I was cutting up my arms and taking too much anxiety medicine. I became afraid to drive and my doctor and I decided to go into the hospital. It was helpful but I have a road to go. I need your continued help and prayers. I know how much they help. Thanks

Medicine making things worse not better

Today I go back to the Doctor to see if we can come up with a plan b. The Welbutrin isn't working for me so it's back to the drawing board. I have hacked up my arms when having a wicked anxiety attack. Crying all the time and want to lay in bed all day. The house is a mess and I just can't seem to get it together to do anything about it. I started making Vadims jungle blanket because I figured I should finish it before I die. I just feel helpless but not hopeless. Victor is so supportive but kids don't understand. Please pray for me. I want to enjoy my life again.

Weaning and Wailing

I have been working on weaning the baby for a week now. She is doing pretty well but sometimes just doesn't get why this is happening to her. I am taking the new medication and it is going slow but I am hopeful. It can't last forever right.......

Depression Sucks!

I have been dealing with depression for some time. For the last three pregnancies it has gotten harder and harder to battle. Everytime someone told me to stop breastfeeding and go on another medication I refused. I cannot refuse anymore. I have to stope nursing for the whole family's benefit. I am watching them fall apart around me and have to do something. So the nursing is over. Pray for us to get thru it.

And Another is Growing up and Reaching new stars!

Our beautiful Anastasia turned Eight on April 29th. She is smart and witty and has a wicked wicked laugh. She drives her older sisters nuts and her little brother nuts but Katrina thinks she is the bees knees. Who knows what delights she has in store for us but life is definately more interesting with her in it.

She also recently celebrated first commonion with her class. Receiving a blessing as she is not Catholic but Russian Orthodox so she received first communion when she was baptized.

They Tell you Time Flies but How did this Happen

On April 24th my oldest child turned 13. Sasha is a lovely, sensative and intelligent girl. She can tell you amazing things. She knows so much about so many things. She is Laryssa's best reference for her Greek report. The time has gone by so quickly but I love the person she is and is becoming. Great things are coming her way!